there is a storm coming

I''m so in love but I can't help to think that it will end in disaster. The longer your with me the harder things are going to get. Things might get so unbearable at times that you just want to run and hide alone. I feel like I don't want you to choose between me and your family. It shouldn't be like that but unfortunately this is how things are. I feel that your family has way more importance to you than I do. Who's to say that I'll be alive tomorrow to love you? Who's to say that you'll love me to the end? With me there are so many questionable circumstances but with your family its forever. I don't think that its fair to you. Your family should love you for who you are and what you do not for whom you love. But for us its different. Its so hard hiding our relationship from people because it hurts to hide who you love. Love is Joy and Joy is life so if we hide our love is there no joy in life? As of right now there is internal joy but a reality of agony from hiding your true happiness. How happy can one person be without the acceptance of their family or loved ones? I know I love you with all my heart and I know that I can love you until the end of my forever but I don't know how long your forever is. I feel as if your pushing away from me. I feel deep down in my heart that your going to run from me when times get to be to much. you say you don't want to lose me but your not willing to do or to deal with absolutely everything to be with me like i am with you. Your relationship with your parents, family, friends mean the world to you how can you really give that up for me? I feel like my love for you will never go away but I know I'll have to push it to the side to play that best friend role instead of as your lover the role I'd rather play. I don't know if I could just actually be just your friend, after loving you this badly I honestly don't believe that I can settle for a friendship. I couldn't ever see you with someone else it would crumble my soul and shatter my heart. I love you so much. I don't know if I should be with you anymore. I know you wont make the decision to leave me but i know you don't want to lose your family so I think I might make the decision for you. I love you enough to let you go. I'm sorry.