1ST is THE WORST &++ 2ND is THE BEST

I gave up the first love of my life for the second.. The first love of my life tended to hurt me quite often.. and at times i felt like she just didn't know what to do with being in a relationship with me.. i loved her since i layed eyes on her and because i loved her so much i was willing to put up with everything and anything for her.. and that is exactly what i did... i fell more and more in love with her... and for a year and a few months she had my heart still. but not completely... but i knew i still loved her and i just felt like it wasn't meant for us to be together... at a period of time i started to hate her because everything she said i thought it was a lie.. and i hurt her.. but you could never say i intentionally hurt her.. not my style.... but i found the second Love of my life... and Ive been with her and every second is better than the one before it... i have never loved someone as much as I L0VE MIRIAM MARINA .... she has been my angel since the day she spoke to me... there aren't words to explain... even though i still loved the first one she came in and she gave me a change of heart.. and she made my heart call for her..

I've been hurt so many times and i have yet to be hurt by Ms. Marina and i never plan on it... but at times I'm so afraid of losing her... its almost like at times it way to good to be true and maybe i shouldn't think like that but i cant help it.... my first love Ariana came with baggage but it was OK because i loved her and i put up with everything to be with her and she did the same in return but something about her just baffled me at times.... i just felt like things weren't a 100% and i knew it was time to go.. and letting her go was one of the best decisions of my life.. sounds harsh,, it s the TRUTH, AND THE TRUTH HURTS....

To the love of my life

I fell in
with an angel before December 12th 2008….I’ve been in love ever since…
You mean so much to me and I cant lose you… I’ve gotten to a point where I need you beyond measure. You’ve left your footprints on my heart forever and there will never be another person to walk through my heart just as you did. I just want to be the one that can take you away from everything you’ve seen.. I CAN promise you that I’ll NEVER hurt you because your apart of me….. your a lot more than my better half you’re my everything, my heart, my soul, my best friend and most importantly you’re the air I breathe…… With every step I take you are there to hold my hand and to catch me if I fall… you there to wipe my tears away even though there are few of them to catch… if my heart is broken your there to mend it back together, your there when no one else is…… I cant really explain to you how much I love you because there aren’t words good enough for me to use….. you showed me a type of love, a love I’m just not used to and you made me fall for you in a matter of days.. everything you do expresses the love you have for me therefore I’m left with no doubt… All I ever wanted was to be loved &+ you did that without me even asking and that made my mind, my heart and my soul call for you every minute, every second of every day….. At times it hurts so bad to be away from you… not to be able to cup your face in the palms of my hands &+ kiss your lips just to say I love you or not being able to roll over &+ hold you until we fell asleep…. &+ no matter how hard I try I can never get the thought of you out of my head… you’ve made me see the truth, you’ve brought joy to my life, you made the wrong in me right, and you made almost every dream of mine come true &+When you touch me you send me to kiss the sky and I cant explain to you how grateful I am to have you to call my girlfriend…. As long as I have you nothing else matters at all… you’ve been my inspiration and my world is much much better place because of you.. and I say to you you’re my eyes when I cant see and you’re my ears when I cant hear and you’re my voice when I cant speak…. Everything I am is because you took the time to love me….. and I know what I feel, you feel so hopefully you feel the love I have for you is beyond real and hopefully its all you ever hoped for….. I can do nothing but promise that I’ll continue to give you the best of me …… it breaks my heart at the thought of ever having to lose you ::: someone that is my absolute everything….. I know that I couldn’t handle it even though I’ve been thru hell and back none of that matters…. I guess losing you would be my breaking point…. Baby all I can ever ask of you is to continue to love me the best way you know how… if things came along that you couldn’t handle and you felt like you had to leave you’d be taking my heart with you even though I’m not coming along with it….. storms will come but can you stand the rain:: ?