Sleepless Nights..

SLEEPLESS NIGHTS

Last night I didn't go to sleep. I was up all night thinking about everything and everyone. Especially my wife and my best friend. Those two are very most important people to me in my life. They both have been there for me in the worst of times and they found a way to push through with me every time. I've lost friends because they weren't really who they said they were. But both Miriam Marina and Christina Lea were a MILLION times more than what they said they were going to be.. In a matter of time they grew to be apart of me. Without them there is no me. They may not understand that this is the time that I need them the most. I am the most sensible person in the world and I 100% understand how they feel and how they feel is very very extremely important to me. Things will only get harder from here. Can you stand the rain? I need you to, I really really need you to be able to handle this with me. I cant have the two of them giving up on me. And I`m sure they wont because they are amazing people and they have AAALLLWWAAYYYSSS been there for me.

There will be many tears shed before I leave and after. But just know your both in my heart along with the rest but your name is written in a special place. I`ll be away from the one that my soul calls for every second of every minute of every hour of every day and of every month. Thats going to be the hardest thing. Forget boot camp, A.I.T., combat. Forget all of that, being away from her will be the hardest...

Some people arent understanding why I say this is selfish. I call this dream of mine selfish because I`m taking myself away from the people who love me and thats not fair to them. It`s not fair to my wife that she wont be able to kiss my lips, hold my hand, or even have me make love to her when she wants to. My best friends wont be able to have me to talk to when something is wrong. They`re going to have to fend for themselves for as long as I am gone and that might be incredibly hard for some.

In 5 months it`ll be January. January 2Oth is when I turn 18. And I`m off to boot camp.

[(As the sun Rises it will be a NEW day.)]

Since i`m only 17 I need my grandparents concent and I hope they dont take this dream away from me, i`ll be so heart broken.

I LOVE YOU MIRIAM MARINA &+ CHRISTINA LEA !!!!!